Week 3

So far, I'm really enjoying this Handling Conflict deal.  I like seeing how this develops.  My team has had some good discussions on this as we've gone which has been helpful.  The people on this team are so much more proactive than other teams I've been on in this Master's program.  So many people just don't seem to care.  These folks certainly care.  It's not often I'm the least good on a team, but it feels that way.  It's nice for a change because it gets tiring to carry all the load.

I'm having tons of conflict at work.  I'm just so burned out that I know I'm not reacting well.  I'm getting defensive.  I really don't like settling for less than the best and it feels like that's all we do.  I know that I can't stay at this company.  I'm hoping to finish my degree and then stay a year.  Then I only owe half of what they pay for my degree.  It's just stressful.

I have one co-worker that I really like.  She's just awesome.  I know the way I'm feeling is causing a bit of a problem for her.  I just don't know what to do about it.

I'm really just exhausted.  I'm physically tired.  I've been working out a ton this year and working through different eating plans.  And mentally, I'm just dead.  Between this school stuff and the past 18 months of work, I'm toast.  I have no more to give.  I'm running on fumes.  I'm really tired of it.  I decided to double up on classes one extra time.  That means I'll be done in October.  And I really just can't wait.  I didn't actually want to do this in the first place.  I really don't want to do it now.  But I started it so I will finish it.  And I will crush it, because that's what I do.  But this is costing me some sanity and I don't like it.